'Twas the night before...

So what do you do the day before you start chemo? Clean up the studio {kind of}, fill anti-nausea prescriptions, buy things you don’t normally buy, but that folks in the know have told you, you really must have... hand sanitizer, laxatives and alcohol free mouthwash for starters. Go to the grocery store and stock up on non-perishable food items your kids will eat, lots of pancake mix, mac and cheese and potato chips... Make appt. for radical haircut because you’re not ready to just shave it off like a very brave woman you know {and it’s winter god damn it, it's cold!}

The tree is decorated, a few gifts are stashed away haphazardly... my 16-year old actually paid me a compliment, “nice job mom, it’s so cozy in here, it seems so festive and holidayish, I like it.” This is worth a million bucks.

You treat the kids to breakfast-for-dinner, pancakes and bacon, Brinner {a term we confess to lifting from friends}, and keep breathing... I guess that’s what you do.